Perversions

The dark perversions of the soul
Can be satiated but not controlled
They will wake and will invade
The pleading truce that you have made
They will creep in when no one's near
You'll feel their touch and whispers hear
And you will try to stand moral ground
But you'll give in, no solace found
Do not feel bad; do not confess
On dirty secrets we all obsess
So find a mate with whom to play
Whose perversions match so they will stay
At least with this you'll know you tried
So then you can be satisfied
You have a fetish and are perverse
Live it up don't feel the curse
Dirty little secrets we all keep
Enjoy them, live them, don't bury them deep
Fetish is out there, it's everywhere
So be proud of yours; be one who cares
Come out of the closet, so to speak
Enjoy your sex. Be a freak.

**i wish i could give credit to the artist of the above picture, but i do not know who it is. I truely love this pic and i wish i did know.

Back!

Sorry i have been away for so long. Life gets messy sometimes and you just have to deal with it. RL has been....hectic.....to say the least, but i think (i hope anyway) that things are slowing down now and i can get back to what i want to do.

So, with that said i suppose i will update everyone..... Ru and i are still going strong. it has been very lonely with out him here and since it is the holidays we have not seen each other as much as we would like. It has been hard on both of us, but we have promised not to let that happen again. it is simply to difficult to not share important moments in life with the people that you love, and there is no one on the planet i love more than my Ru. He did come and visit me a couple of weeks ago and we celebrated our Christmas together and also our anniversary. it was all wonderful. we opened our little presents from each other and we had breakfast...pancakes, eggs and bacon and drank mimosa's and we snuggled on the couch and we did not get out of our pj's all day. we just talked and played and held each other. it was GREAT! the next night i came home from work and walked in the door.....and there were rose petals all over the floor with notes....and instructions. i, of course, was immediately laughing......but i followed the trail and did as instructed....go here, but down your things - which, you must understand....Ru never does not meet me at the door when i come home - go here and pick up your drink...have a sip, stop here and remove your clothing....except my good girl undies...(yes, i was due a good girl spanking and had the undies for the occasion; they say "i've been good..." on the back side).....go here and so forth..... following the rose petals all the way. it was great fun and a wonderful spanking i MUST say ...... and yes, i was VERY over due. so when i finally get to open the bedroom door, i walk in and there are the pillows placed so nicely on the bed, with candles lit and ALL of our implements on the bed.....one's i was not even aware of....like cooking utensils...lol!!! So, i knew i was in for it, my heart was racing, i was a little scared, but sooo ready! it gets hard with him being away. i crave the feel of him....... but this one was filled with lots of giggling right along with the owie's. i loved it. it was a very long one..... pretty intense, but all the giggling and drinking we were doing made it very fun. my bottom was actually a bit sore the next day and i think that might be the first time i have really been sore. There was lots of licking of various body parts on both of our sides..... then when he was finally done, with the wooden spoons, the leather paddle, the the yard stick, the pain stir, the new acrylic paddles i bought him for Christmas (that facial expression was priceless! got it on film), and the hairbrush, we had the most wonderfully intense sex that was soooo soooo, satisfyingly wonderful.....then we got dressed and went out to this really nice Italian restaurant. it was divine. i drank to much....i have a tendency to do that with Ru...haha...then we came home and lit a fire and somehow i ended up bent over a chair in front of it!? Now how does that happen? it was great fun. Ru and i always seem to have a great time together.

i did get one other spanking before he left. this one was a bit different......a first for us i suppose. i always get very upset when he leaves. i even get mad at him sometimes after he leaves. and i get depressed and i act like a brat. i don't mean to, it is just that as my love for him grows, it gets hard to let him go each time. i know it will not be forever, but that does not matter in the middle of it. i feel so complete when he is here sharing my life. then he leaves and everything looses it's color, so to speak. Well, we have talked abt it before.....the preemptive spanking.....but neither of us were sure it was a good idea. but after the last visit i got so down that i, well i think we both decided on our own, that it was worth a try. we discussed it briefly but he did not really say if he was going to do it or not.....well he did AND i was taken a bit by surprise, which was not a bad thing. it was short, but very intense. he spanked me until i promised to behave the following day (translation - not to torture him) and said i know that he loved me. i think i gave in a bit to early. it did have an impact on me i think. i think maybe it should have been a bit more, but i was impressed that he tried it out at all to be honest. i do believe it helped in having the desired affect. not that it completely stopped me from being a ninny, but it helped. thanks baby. i know it was hard for you.

so, i will try to be better with my blogging as well. i cannot promise anything mind you..... but i will try!

so, Merry Christmas, happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa or happy whatever you are celebrating this time of year. May you all have happy spankings by the fire on a cold winters night.

Lu