OTK Spanking

so, as i said i am going to tell you all abt my very first OTK spanking. it is something i have been wanting to try for a long time. i never really thought abt OTK until i started reading up on spanking. my ideas and images were always a bit different (no i will not elaborate, LOL). but as i read more and watch more it has been one thing that has intrigued me. many bottoms say they don't like it b/c it is uncomfortable. i can see that; but i am small and Ru is tall and i figured i would fit just abt perfect across is legs where i would not have to put my hands down for balance.......and i was right. HA! i love it when a plan comes together!

so i had been hinting at Ru that he should put me over his knee, but being far away from each other, when we are finally together it is hard to remember exactly what i wanted a week prior. this time, i had already gotten the spanking of my life the day before so i was able to think pretty clear....amazing how that happens. so after a WONDERFUL day, that included the moment below, we were snuggling on the couch and......as usual started getting all hot and bothered. not sure how we got to the topic of spanking, it seems a natural progression sometimes, but i was pretty worked up and Ru knew it, and he knew what i wanted. He made me ask for it!!! then he made me go get the leather paddle.....i do like that one! then he pulled out a chair of the hard straight backed variety, he sat down and positioned himself and made me bend over....it was fabulous, i must say..... one of my favorite spankings to date. i did fit perfectly over his knees so that i wrapped my arms around his leg and my feet did not need to touch the ground either to balance, although sometimes he pushed them back down to the floor....they have a tendency to fly up into the air....wonder what's up with that *giggle*. so he spanked my bare bottom with his hand and the leather paddle......i think he was going easy on me b/c of the night before, but really it was just perfect for a good girl spanking in my opinion and i had been a very very good girl that day. my bottom turned a very nice shade of red and had just a great sting to it....i like the sting. i loved being able to arch my back and toss my head back or curl my legs under.....i felt like i had mobility, in a weird way, yet was still very controlled and there is definitely more room for control/restraint. i really loved the touching; that i was touching him the whole time after the day we had had together.....it was a great ending. i did giggle a lot too.... i don't know why i do that either, i just cannot help it. when he was done spanking me he put one of those temporary tattoos right at the top of my butt - the thing is still there....it will not come off. the whole thing was great fun and i enjoyed it so very much. Thanks for listening Ru!

so all of you out there wondering if OTK is worth a try, i loved it and hope to find myself there many many more times mowing and giggling at the same time. I swear, next time i am breaking out the short plaid skirt and tall socks.......and maybe some pigtails. i think that would be just about right!

moments

i have been very busy lately. i have not had much time to write. work has been.....frustrating to say the least and some other aspects of my personal life are still as infuriating as ever. i did get to spend some time last week with Ru which was nice, but it was.......very busy. Normally we get a night or 2, at least, to just be together but this time was more work than normal and more demands on our time so it was not the best visit. Don't get me wrong, we always enjoy seeing each other and we will take what we can get, but we always want more and it can be frustrating not to have any quality time together...... and no spankable time. the good news is we got to spend the weekend together too. that does not normally happen and it was a great weekend. i have never known someone that could put me at such ease as Ru can....... when i fall into his arms, it is instant relief! *sigh*.... ok, enough babbling abt sappy things, well......maybe not....LOL! i would like to share with anyone that is reading my favorite moment from this weekend and it is on my short list of favorite moments with Ru, i think. Ru has this thing abt moments. it is so sweet and i love it....... "it is all about moments" he says and he is right. well, we are picnic people so we usually try to squeeze one in when we can and on sunday he took me on a picnic at a state park. The grounds were beautiful and right up our alley with lots of oaks strung with moss. we walked around holding hands and talking. then we got our bottle of wine, 7 deadly Zins - good stuff if you like a bold spicy red zen - and we sat in some rocking chairs on the porch of this house looking out at the scenery and drank wine and talked. we talked about our dreams and that was good for me. it has been a long time since i thought about dreams....or since i had any. i feel like all of mine have crashed and burned in recent years, so much so that i have not even dared to consider new ones. i had dreams once upon a time........of saving the world when i was very young.........of a partner and a loving, fulfilling family........of children......of laughter.......of writing....... after growing up and realizing one person cannot change the world, much less save it, after 2 failed marriages and many heart aches in the realm of children and child baring, after realizing a true partner is very hard to find, i eventually stopped writing and with it, stopped dreaming. i don't think i ever even realized it until sunday on that porch. talking about it, realizing i could dream again.......if i dared......was in itself a great gift. i loved that moment.... thank you Ru. you always seem to know what to do. i so love you for that. knowing a true partner is so hard to find and feeling like i have found one in you is enough to help me plant the seed for a new dream. that is one of the best gifts you could ever give me. please know how much i appreciate that.

ok, NOW enough sappy babbling. I will post more tomorrow about my wonderful OTK experience....... my first one ever! but it is late and my time is up for tonight. i am glad i got to make a post at least. Dream well.

spanking for headspace

i seem to be back to myself, which is always a good thing. i was just sitting here thinking about getting a good spanking from Ru...... I had these crazy dreams last night, woke up sweating and panting and in quite the excited state. i had several of them involving various scenarios of Ru and his implements and my bare bottom..... and well as other scenes of passionate, heavy sex.... i guess we can all tell what i need....LOL. as i was reminiscing of my dreams and desires, i started thinking about headspace. Last week i was in such a state. i was very down, very lonely. i desperately needed something to take my mind off of the woes of work and my other RL issues.... i knew that, but i was not in the frame of mind to come up with something. So now that i am back to my self, and after my oh so wonderful, yet frustrating, dreams, i wonder if a nice spanking would not have been the perfect thing...... Of course, if Ru and i were not so far away from each other, i do not believe i would have been so down. Grumpy and bitchy, probably.......and my guess is Ru would have found an opportunity to help me work that out were he here. I have read on Bonnie's site, My Bottom Smarts, that sometimes a good spanking is just the thing for frustration. I am here to say i agree with that, although i have never had one just for that reason. i can say that after i usually do feel better, less anxious so i can so see how it would be a great stress reliever. but what about for being down? for me, i get down b/c i feel like everything is crashing in on me at once and i get overwhelmed with life. i am generally a good person and would never intentionally hurt another soul so when ppl do that to me, i have a hard time understanding why; i mean that is just not in my nature. so anyway, that is really how it began. i was down abt Ru not being here and my x decided to pull some schenanigans and then everything just cascaded from there. i realize now it would have been really great to feel that nice submissive feeling i had before.....the one where i felt like i did not have to carry the weight of the world all by myself (visitor). it has really only happened the one time, but i think in that state of mind it would not have been hard to achieve. i think it would have helped me get out of the dark headspace i was in. Of course this is just all speculation. Anyone out there experienced this? i would really like to know if you have and if it helped at all to get a good spanking, from someone you love and trust, when you are feeling overwhelmed and maybe a bit down....in a general funk.

So, as i said, i seam to be back in my normal head space and as randy as ever. i am deffinatley in need of a nice warm bottom.....I do believe Ru agrees as he has been teasing me all day about how much i need one and how he cannot wait to help me out with that. it very wonderful when we are on the same wavelength, in the same headspace, which is most of the time. So i get to see him next week and i am SOOOOOOO excited!! I get to spend the weekend with him too; that was an unexpected bonus.......and i do like a good bonus. see you monday hun!

Need

it is hard being separated, esp after so much time together. i cannot seem to get back to myself since he left. the chaos of work, and other personal issues in my life do not help. everything seems so much worse than it really is, maybe b/c i feel, in a way, i am facing it alone. i know i am not, that Ru is always there to support me and listen and advise, but it is still hard when i cannot feel his gentle touch, his sweet embrace.....sit in his lap the way i always do. ..... there is just something abt the physical that helps reinforce the idea and feelings of support. it makes me feel weak to think this way, but Ru has awakened a part of me that never existed before. the part that feels the need of others and i can admit that, for the first time ever.....that i need others (esp RU). i have never been a loner per say, but i have always been very comfortable being alone. the closer i get to Ru, the less i enjoy my own company.....don't get me wrong, i can crack my self up, but i would rather us be together and share the jokes, the shows, the tears......what ever it is......to share. It seems these days no matter what i do i feel like something is missing, some one to share with. is it a weakness to feel the need of someone else? this is a new thing for me in my adult life and i think i am having a bit of trouble processing it.......

our vacation

i know it has been a while since i posted anything, but i wanted to post about our vacation. we had a wonderful time, saw a great band and had some quality time enjoying the sun and each other. we ate a lot, we drank a lot, we had a lot of sex and some nice spank time! For me, just being together for that long was the best part. We usually only get 3-4 days at a time which is never enough. it is hard to cram weeks into such a short time period. i will tell you about some highlights, discoveries and my favorite spanking while on vacation.

Highlights:

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  Toy shopping - yes, we went toy shopping. Neither of us had ever been in a real "adult" store before. We knew what we were looking for but had to go to 3 or 4 before we found it. We had so much fun looking and giggling though, it was a very nice experience. Of course, if you look back at Ru's posts you will see what was purchased. I wore a nice, very short blue jean skirt for the occasion and, as promised, when we got home from dinner i got well acquainted with Ru's ottoman and our new paddle. :)


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  Picnic - on our last day we had a picnic. the day before we had gone to a local winery and picked up a new wine tote and a wonderful cheese ball mix. well, i made the cheese ball and some other snacks and we packed a bottle of wine and headed out for our picnic. Ru, being the romantic that he is, wanted to go some place very special and new for our picnic, but as time was short we opted for a spot by the water that was very close. it was great fun. just sitting, talking, sharing. it was one of my favorite moments.

Discoveries:

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  Bora Bora - i discovered that if we won the lottery, i would run away with Ru to Bora Bora. No second guessing, i would do it and leave all of this behind. of all the people i have ever known, i believe he is the only one i could spend all my time with and not be dreadfully bored. it was a nice discovery.


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  implements - let's see, this trip i was familiarized with the new leather paddle - i liked it - the hairbrush - owie, that sucker packs a punch - the yardstick - i liked it too, for some reason it makes me giggle. Not the best reaction when your bottom is sticking up in the air and someone is smacking you with one.......


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  Fear - there is not much i am truly afraid of. i am a strong independent woman. i fend for myself and have always taken care of myself. every time i try and let someone else take care of me, it is a disaster. i do not know why this is. i have discovered in recent days that i am afraid to loose Ru ...... this is unsettling to me in a way but reinforces my feelings for him. we have much in our way before we can truly be together the way we want to be.....time, distance, careers, family....... one cannot see the future thus there is always doubt.

Spanking

ok, so the ottoman was nice, erotic, but it was not my favorite while we were on vacation. there was another........

Some background.....Ru has this thing about wanting to make sure i am "in the mood". i am almost always in the mood, and if i am not it is either b/c i do not feel well, or i am in a bad mood.....if in a bad mood though, that may be just what i need anyway! but i digress.....so, i wanted to surprise him one day....difficult as we are always together there is not much time to set up. So anyway, Ru was taking me out to a club to go dancing and my shoes were in the car....i saw my opportunity to get him out of my way for a few precious moments.....so i got my "out fit" ready (an orange t shirt and some thigh high socks with orange and yellow stripes at the top and orange undies) and then asked him to go get my shoes out of the car. i changed quick fast in a hurry, grabbed the yard stick - yes, its origins were on vacation.....not sure how it ended up in the corner at my apartment...hehehehe.....the paddle and bent myself over the kitchen table so Ru would have a lovely view of my posterior when he walked back through the door. he thought i was up to something, so he was not as surprised as i would have liked, but he was surprised enough, and pleasantly so. i got VERY familiar with the yard stick. also, he did not hold back as much as he usually does, which i enjoyed. at the end, after the yard stick, the paddle, the brush and his hand......when i thought it was over or almost over, he said, can you take 20 more? i said yes. he said, ok, choose your implement and smacked me with each of the forementioned devices. Now, my bottom was pretty hot and sore by this time, so i chose the hand as it packed less of a sting. So, my Ru says ok, hairbrush it is! Thanks babe......it was pretty funny. he only smacked me twice (i think) with the brush and a few times with the yard stick and finished up with his hand ....... and believe me i was keeping count of every lick. then he kissed me and hugged me and lead me to the bedroom where we had amazing sex, i got a good rub, then we got dressed and went dancing. great night.

Something Unexpected

The day after i got home, Ru found out he did not have to go to the office so he came and stayed with me instead. We were together for 2 weeks. it was wonderful. But it was very hard for me on Friday when i knew he had to leave the next day. i was in a very dark mood. it is hard now when we seperate and it get's harder every time; but other than friday night, we had a wonderful 2 weeks together. Ru, thanks for always being there for me and for being such great parnter. I love u.

Convenient Household Items

So LU and I were enjoying each others company and playing around, just flirting with each other, when she proceeds to bend over a stool and tease me that she wanted to be spanked. Well I am just not one to let my woman down, so I quickly look around the room for something interesting to “play with” and in the corner of the room I see a yard stick. Oh my….this must be fate! Well I must say that this new discovery was most enjoyable for us both. What started out as flirting turned in to some quality spank time. Yard stick baby! If you don’t have one….get one!

The thing that really made me chuckle was what was written on it….some real estate agent advertisement (I think) that said “Talk to Lucy”. A quick drop of the “cy” and I was in business. Anyway, I just thought I would share with you fine folks. This is what LU has in store when she walks in tonight.

Have a great weekend……I know ours will start out very well!

New Toys

LU and I went toy shopping while on vacation. More to say about this later. Here is one of them... Hope you are having as good of a labor day as LU and I are.

Your Nearness

I thought I would share with you one of LU's many poems. So much of her work is very personal to me or to her, so it is hard to choose some times. But I like this one and I hope you do as well.

Your nearness invades me

And I succumb to it

It seeps deep into me

And calms the depths within me

Your presence over powers me

I am no match for you

As you undo the harshness of the day

I have no choice but to obey

Your touch expertly defeats me

And I willingly surrender to it

It melts the resistance within

So I can see the beauty in the world again

You.....end the war inside me

Stop the static in my head

And take me to a tranquil place

Every time I feel your sweet embrace

excited!

so, it has been a ruff week in the business world and i, for one, am glad it is over. Also, it is one day closer to me getting to see my RU. i am sooooo excited! i cannot wipe this silly smile off my face for anything! i think i have enough planned to keep me busy for the weekend, washing, cleaning, packing for tomorrow and then working out and visiting some friends on Sunday. Still, i am sure everyday will be agonizingly slow to pass, as Monday will no doubt be. Good thing about me and Mondays, they go by pretty darn fast b/c there is ALWAYS so much to be done and not enough hours to do it in.....now Monday night will be the hard part.....getting some quality sleep. I have a tendency not to sleep when i am very excited and being in RU's arms on Tuesday? well, let's just say that is more than just exciting. Also, on this trip we will get to spend more time together than we have in any visit, a whole week b/c of Labor day! yippeeeeeee! i always knew i liked labor day for some reason. so what ever will we do together for a whole week? i am sure all of you can come up with at least 2 good extracurricular activities we will be involved in.....LOL! i think we will also try and write about my "coming out" and our first spanking while we are together. i am not sure if this will get done though as time and plans often have meaning when we are together......until that last day when i always seem to count the minutes that are left......but enough of that. i cannot start thinking of that yet.....it is REALLY depressing....

so what will we do? Well, we are meeting somewhere in the middle to see a band that we really like. that will be lots of fun. I really love seeing musicians play when i am with RU. One of my favorite nights we were together was watching live music, drinking wine....... Then we will have to spend some time in the car the next day, but only a few hours one day and it will be totally worth it b/c we have until Monday evening to just be together. that in itself is enough. Other than that you would have to ask RU as he is the planner. i just go with the flow and all i know, so far anyway, is that i will become very familiar with one of RU's ottomans, or so i have been told...... we will see how this works out....... oh, and i was told that stubbornness apparently leads to spankings. :) who knew? did i mention i am very stubborn? LOL!

so, i will not post again until next week and maybe not then.....idk. if nothing else maybe i will post a poem at some time next week. RU loves my poetry so maybe i will let him pick one to share with all of you.......so many new things i am doing, sharing with people, that is just so unlike me..... i blame RU (you knew i would say that!)..... truly, he is good for me.

The Visit – Revisited

So my shockingly beautiful lover LU has invited me to contribute to her spanking new (no pun intended) blog and I am happy to oblige her. We currently and hopefully very temporarily, are forced to be in a long distance relationship. And it is utterly amazing and a little ridiculous at times, how we have embraced technology to stay connected. Several email accounts, several phone numbers, several instant massager accounts, BB Pins, SMS messages, MMS images, etc…. all linked into Black Berry’s and PC’s. Taking phone sex to the ultimate in high tech. And OMG, did she just start a blog so that we can now share our intimacy with you fine folks. Well welcome to the party. LU is such an amazing woman that it would be wrong not to let you share in her words (the rest is mine, all mine!)

I was very curious just how long it would take her to share with the world our new found interest in spanking and …. Meow! That cat came out of the bag real quick. I guess it shows just what an impact this new experience has made in our lives. With that, I must make a special shout out to Bonnie and her friends at “My Bottom Smarts”. Bonnie, I can’t tell you how important your site was in my research when LU first shared her interest with me. It helped me to better understand, appreciate and ultimately get very excited about trying it out. And Wow, did we ever try it! We have been very excited about it ever since and how it can take our relationship instantly into a level of intimacy and trust that shocked us both. So speaking of which…..my last visit…..

First I have to share with you….there is simply no amount of money in this world that comes close to the feeling I get when LU looks at me. The spark in her eyes, the look of love on her face, the touch that is completely electric. To this day, when she walks in a room, I swear my heart skips a beat. Seriously, this is no cheesy love song lyrics,….it happens! This feeling has no equal. When you find it, it is the greatest treasure you will ever know. I have found it and will not let it go. Our initial reunions are always very intense after being apart for so long and building it up with our electronic flirting. It usually is only a matter of minutes before one of us pounces on the other one. This time I got pounced! She is an agile one…..that LU!

So I know, you are saying about now…..get to the spanking part….share with me RU! Well ok, as LU said below, we had a couple of sessions. I would like to share a little about our second session. It was the most intense to date. I spend some time thinking about how I want LU to receive her quality spank time. This time it was blind folded on the edge of the bed with a couple of pillows helping to prop up and present my target nicely. We had the most intense experience and took this opportunity to explore each other VERY, VERY thoroughly, all while she was blind folded and enjoying an ever reddening bottom. We continued until neither one of us could take it any longer and proceeding into passionate love making, followed by some serious love making (choose your preferred word here). Apparently spanking is the ultimate in foreplay for us. We keep it fun. She will giggle, but note that too much giggling may result in a firm smack!

As you can tell from LU’s words below, spanking draws her out in ways I can’t describe. It frees her, relives her stress, and as she shared below (and to me for the first time) it has helped her to understand that she does not have to be this independent island, and does not have to carry life’s burdens alone. (Oh and just so we are clear… you have a serious spanking coming next week! I like where your mind is heading and I don’t want any relapse!) I love the intimacy and trust this has brought into our relationship. And well…..seriously??? Is there anything more amazing then the sight of your lover presenting and sharing herself with you in the most intimate of ways? That’s Hot!

So my conclusion (apparently I can’t turn off my business mind when writing blogs)

1. My love for LU is beyond my ability to express in words. There simply are not enough words that I can string together to express it. I am thinking of creating new ones (feel free to comment if you have suggestions)


2. If your partner has ever expressed the slightest interest in a good spanking, start slow but give it a try. It may not be for you, but you may find, as we have, it can enhance your relationship in ways you could never imagine.