Morning imaginings

As I lay in bed
The sheets
They weigh me down
As they press upon
My rear
So very small and round
For I know what
Awaits me
Later on this day
When I see him they’ll be
No waiting
Across his lap I’ll lay
He will lift my skirt
Give me rules
I’ll take an innocent guise
He’ll lower my panties
And gaze out
Upon his naked prize
There he will see
Anticipation
In the goose bumps on my ass
Then he will make it
Very clear
I should not have been bad in class
“Hands out front
Eyes forward
Be still, you have earned this”
Then he will lean down
And whisper
“I love you” with a kiss
The falls will come
One by one
In a steady cadence
He will continue
Harder faster
Until I’ve paid my penance
He will use his hand
To warm me
And ready me for the rest
Then he will take out
The paddle
Because I love it best
After that I
Will stand
As he strips me bare
Then over the bed
I will go
With my bottom in the air
He will finish
Ruler in hand
My bottom sore and red
Then he will rub it
Caress it
As he pulls me into bed
With our senses
Highly roused
We will begin to explore
As we take each other
With sweet release
Like nothing ever before
We lay there spent
And satisfied
As we nuzzle into each other
We lay there and giggle
And reminisce
As we are so in love with our lover

Spanking please?

So, i have not had a good spanking in a while. Ru was here last week but it was too chaotic and we ended up out late for business almost every night which put a huge damper on our play time; and to top it all off i was not feeling well the last day. *sigh* i hate it when life gets in the way of my play! don't get me wrong; it was wonderful having RU here and spending time together.......there is nothing better. but, i think i am in bad need of a spanking.......yes.....yes i am. i even sent my loving Ru some nice pics of me in his favorite extremely short skirt.....bending over various things in my house.......oh yeah, i am bad......and i am sure i am in for it......i pretty much made sure of that.....like that pic i chose above RU? like those socks? LOL! i am very excited to see him again. this back and forth gets a little old every now and then...ok...all the time, but he is worth it. i, however, need to feel his ......control is such a Strong word, but is what comes to mind.......over me. his assertive hands on me. i have been making way too many decisions at work lately and would love for him to make some for me for a change. you know, i have been thinking a lot lately about why i like it.....spanking...... being spanked. Ru and i even talk about it sometimes. We both agree that one reason, and there are many, but one of the more driving reasons for me is that it takes me completely away from everything. it clears my head....there is nothing else but that moment in time.....Ru and me and my bare bottom being lit up under his firm stroke........ it is the one time i don't think of anything else......there is no work, no worry, no yesterday, no tomorrow......only that moment. i have a very cluttered brain that is very overactive. i have problems shutting it off.....LOL. there are many more reasons i like it. i did not know that the act of being spanked would take me away from the world so completely when i was daydreaming about it all the time, but it is definitely a benefit. i do like the sting too......haha....don't tell RU. i like the complete submission of it (not sure how else to describe) even though i have trouble reaching that place. it has only happened once; the complete ......giving in.... but even so i like putting myself in his hands; the act of submitting.....putting my trust in him.....letting him take me to some other place. i make it sound so serious and some times it is serious and some times it is fun and we giggle and i squirm.......there are just so many sides to it for me and i love letting him take me where ever he thinks i need to go. i love him even more for it; for letting me put that much trust in one person and not being wrong to do so. Anyway....enough of my sap!

i cannot express my excitement to see him tomorrow. My Ru, he is a planner, and i just love that he takes the time to make plans for me....for us. i don't really like planning too much..... BUT when i do make a plan at least you know it is important....to me at least. so, sorry i have not had a good spanking story in a while, but i hope to have one for you all soon. i will be away for a few days so i am not sure when i will be able to make a new post.

i hope you all have a very spankable Halloween!!!! i will certainly try to make the best of my few short days with RU.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!! IT IS OUR DAY AFTER ALL!

The Noise of Missing

this is not my norm in writing, but i really like this one for some reason. it really describes the way i feel at the moment and since i was updating my journal i thought i would share with you all. I hope you like it.


THE NOISE OF MISSING

In silence I sit
As the world moves around me
In a hazy miasma
I seem to move in sluggish circles
While every thing else
Rapidly passes me
So much I am missing
By not sharing
So many experiences
Not lived out loud
Because someone is missing


I move in silence
As I wait to catch up
With the kaleidoscopic world
That twirls around me
To see my surroundings
In their full brilliance
As I wait for the moments
That will take my breath away
And in those
Reach the zenith of my days
So much input undelivered
So many actions
Not lived out loud
Because someone is missing

October

So, October is generally my favorite month. It starts to cool off, fall is all around and of course, there is Halloween......one of my favorite holidays!! I just love Halloween. it is so much fun. it was always a big deal at my house when i was little. There were always parties and festivities and decorations and candy...... and laughter. this year is a bit different for me. i feel like my life is in a bit of disarray so i cannot decorate or celebrate the way i would truly like. At least, though, i want to celebrate. that is a big change from the last few Halloween's that have passed. i will be visiting some friends for the occasion and hope to have a good time, but as i will be out of town, dressing up will not be on the list of festivities...... that may not be a bad thing for me LOL. i would dearly love to spend the day with my Ru, but i cannot so i will try not get down about it...... there is always next year.

BUT, wouldn't it be fun to put on your sexiest little witch costume and get a wonderful spanking for all the toil and trouble you will be stirring up later that night?! OH Yeah! i would love to add that to my favorite fun holiday festivities.....*sigh*.......next year.

anyway, i just wanted to share my enthusiasm for this time of year. I love the scary movies and the haunted houses and all the freaks that like to partake. I mean, there is a little freak in all of us, and a lot in most of you reading this (and the person writing it). so i say get your freak on this month!!!! there is no better time to do it! grab your bottom, light a fire in the hearth, then light a fire on her/his behind! yeeehaww!

Love our Lurkers

Today is the 4th annual Love our Lurkers day! i am not sure how many people actually read the content here, i hope at least a few. i hope that someone reading is getting a little bit out of what Ru and i post. we decided to share our experiences with all of you......whoever would read.....whoever needed to know what this journey was like or could be like. i did not have any expectations that i would grow a famous blog or anything when i started this....... but now i am challenging all of you out there, the silent readers, to speak up and type at us! i am calling out all who visit here to leave a comment and let us know, at least, that we are not alone. if your a spanko and you know it leave a comment *clap* *clap*! let us know if there is something we could do, questions we could answer that would help you, or other things you would like to know or just type us a hello. i think Ru and i would be up for sharing anything we could.

i would never say i do not bite, because i have been known to, but i will respect your inquiries should you have any and be happy to answer or pass along any info or knowledge i may have on the subject. SO, please let us know that you are out there on this fine LOL day!

isn't it time you made your voice heard in the spanko community? i mean, we are freaks in our own right and, personnally, i would not change that about myself for anything in the world. my life would not be half as much fun as it is were i not the freak i was born to be. :)

COME ON... TYPE AT US! LET US KNOW YOU ARE OUT THERE!!!

Thanks to Bonnie at My Bottom Smarts for organising!!!

All About Moments

Well I am very overdue in updating you fine folks. I have just been so busy. I seriously don’t know how so many bloggers can stay current. But I need to chip in and share, so here we go.

I see my darling LU has provided you with an update on our recent adventures. She does such a wonderful job. By now I am sure you guys must agree that I am truly blessed to have her in my life. I don’t know what she sees in me. Let me tell you about my darling LU. By the way, that is a remarkable cartoon likeness in the picture above. First you should know that if you ever pass her on the street and speak, you would recognize her at once I think. I was reading her update below and it is just so…..LU. She is beautiful inside and out. Completely! And her angel eyes… they captivate you…. She looks through you …. You feel completely transparent, and unable to hide anything from her .... not that you want to. You simply can not resist her gravity. And for our spanko friends out there, I would be remiss if I did not tell you about what a very fine athletic bottom we are working with here. I mean even the women in the house would have to say … Damn! Oh and she got this ultra short pleated tennis skirt the other day and I simply can’t tell you what it does to me…….. ***daydream*** …… Sorry I checked out for a minute there…….

I find it interesting that she originally started this blog as a way to share the things she wanted talk about or were bottled up, in part because we are remote and I am not physically there most of the time to be the companion she deserves. She did not really intend for it to be a blog about spanking. But to our surprise, we have discovered a whole world out there of people like us and the blog has been quite therapeutic at times. So with that, I would like to share with you one of my favorite moments of last week (excluding the porch and OTK time that LU has already shared with you). As you know, it IS …. all about moments with me.

So we do not get many full weekends together, but I do love to wake up with her curled in my arms … naked of course. I do love that about her. Our closeness always intensifies and develops into full blown intimacy ……. A great way to start you day I must say. After an appropriate cool down and cuddle time, I like to slip away and make the coffee. I like to bring her breakfast in bed so to speak. On this day it consisted of powdered donuts (oh I can cook…..never fear) and coffee (with whip cream of course). I do this on purpose because the powder gets everywhere when you eat them and I get to lick all the parts that get sugar on them…… oh and she can be a messy eater when rewards are involved! Yummy!

We then curl up together, still naked and clean of sugar, and have our coffee and chat. We also have started two “traditions” I guess one could say. Neither of us have ever been gamblers. But we have purchased a lottery ticket every time we have a weekend together. LU and I have both kind of been without dreams for a while until we became a couple. Once you obtain your dreams, or situations make them no longer relevant, you must replace them. Life without dreams is a sad thing. Our dream is to run away together to Bora Bora! So we kiss, and pull up the internet and check our tickets. Oh we will never win, that is not the point. The point is to have a dream together and to work for it as a team.

We also check our blog (HI guys!) and then spend a little time at the Sunday Brunch with our good friends at My Bottom Smarts. It is fun.

Anyway, nothing beats the moments we have together when you have shared interest. I hope you have enjoyed my update. I have more to share but must get back to the grind! Until next time…..

OTK Spanking

so, as i said i am going to tell you all abt my very first OTK spanking. it is something i have been wanting to try for a long time. i never really thought abt OTK until i started reading up on spanking. my ideas and images were always a bit different (no i will not elaborate, LOL). but as i read more and watch more it has been one thing that has intrigued me. many bottoms say they don't like it b/c it is uncomfortable. i can see that; but i am small and Ru is tall and i figured i would fit just abt perfect across is legs where i would not have to put my hands down for balance.......and i was right. HA! i love it when a plan comes together!

so i had been hinting at Ru that he should put me over his knee, but being far away from each other, when we are finally together it is hard to remember exactly what i wanted a week prior. this time, i had already gotten the spanking of my life the day before so i was able to think pretty clear....amazing how that happens. so after a WONDERFUL day, that included the moment below, we were snuggling on the couch and......as usual started getting all hot and bothered. not sure how we got to the topic of spanking, it seems a natural progression sometimes, but i was pretty worked up and Ru knew it, and he knew what i wanted. He made me ask for it!!! then he made me go get the leather paddle.....i do like that one! then he pulled out a chair of the hard straight backed variety, he sat down and positioned himself and made me bend over....it was fabulous, i must say..... one of my favorite spankings to date. i did fit perfectly over his knees so that i wrapped my arms around his leg and my feet did not need to touch the ground either to balance, although sometimes he pushed them back down to the floor....they have a tendency to fly up into the air....wonder what's up with that *giggle*. so he spanked my bare bottom with his hand and the leather paddle......i think he was going easy on me b/c of the night before, but really it was just perfect for a good girl spanking in my opinion and i had been a very very good girl that day. my bottom turned a very nice shade of red and had just a great sting to it....i like the sting. i loved being able to arch my back and toss my head back or curl my legs under.....i felt like i had mobility, in a weird way, yet was still very controlled and there is definitely more room for control/restraint. i really loved the touching; that i was touching him the whole time after the day we had had together.....it was a great ending. i did giggle a lot too.... i don't know why i do that either, i just cannot help it. when he was done spanking me he put one of those temporary tattoos right at the top of my butt - the thing is still there....it will not come off. the whole thing was great fun and i enjoyed it so very much. Thanks for listening Ru!

so all of you out there wondering if OTK is worth a try, i loved it and hope to find myself there many many more times mowing and giggling at the same time. I swear, next time i am breaking out the short plaid skirt and tall socks.......and maybe some pigtails. i think that would be just about right!

moments

i have been very busy lately. i have not had much time to write. work has been.....frustrating to say the least and some other aspects of my personal life are still as infuriating as ever. i did get to spend some time last week with Ru which was nice, but it was.......very busy. Normally we get a night or 2, at least, to just be together but this time was more work than normal and more demands on our time so it was not the best visit. Don't get me wrong, we always enjoy seeing each other and we will take what we can get, but we always want more and it can be frustrating not to have any quality time together...... and no spankable time. the good news is we got to spend the weekend together too. that does not normally happen and it was a great weekend. i have never known someone that could put me at such ease as Ru can....... when i fall into his arms, it is instant relief! *sigh*.... ok, enough babbling abt sappy things, well......maybe not....LOL! i would like to share with anyone that is reading my favorite moment from this weekend and it is on my short list of favorite moments with Ru, i think. Ru has this thing abt moments. it is so sweet and i love it....... "it is all about moments" he says and he is right. well, we are picnic people so we usually try to squeeze one in when we can and on sunday he took me on a picnic at a state park. The grounds were beautiful and right up our alley with lots of oaks strung with moss. we walked around holding hands and talking. then we got our bottle of wine, 7 deadly Zins - good stuff if you like a bold spicy red zen - and we sat in some rocking chairs on the porch of this house looking out at the scenery and drank wine and talked. we talked about our dreams and that was good for me. it has been a long time since i thought about dreams....or since i had any. i feel like all of mine have crashed and burned in recent years, so much so that i have not even dared to consider new ones. i had dreams once upon a time........of saving the world when i was very young.........of a partner and a loving, fulfilling family........of children......of laughter.......of writing....... after growing up and realizing one person cannot change the world, much less save it, after 2 failed marriages and many heart aches in the realm of children and child baring, after realizing a true partner is very hard to find, i eventually stopped writing and with it, stopped dreaming. i don't think i ever even realized it until sunday on that porch. talking about it, realizing i could dream again.......if i dared......was in itself a great gift. i loved that moment.... thank you Ru. you always seem to know what to do. i so love you for that. knowing a true partner is so hard to find and feeling like i have found one in you is enough to help me plant the seed for a new dream. that is one of the best gifts you could ever give me. please know how much i appreciate that.

ok, NOW enough sappy babbling. I will post more tomorrow about my wonderful OTK experience....... my first one ever! but it is late and my time is up for tonight. i am glad i got to make a post at least. Dream well.